I feel like I’m slowly losing myself in everything, for the past week or so i have not felt myself in any way, all we have been doing is fighting and all i have been doing is fighting with myself it seems. Blake is going through a phase where nothing i do for her is making her happy and i feel its the same thing for you. I don’t talk to anyone anymore bc whats the point for people to get sick of me and never want to talk to me after? I even have stopped talking to my mom about some things bc what is the point? half the time i just feel like im being a bug to everyone. I guess lately i just don’t seem to make anyone happy bc of whatever i say or whatever i do. Some days i miss being a kid myself and not having all these worries bc they didn’t matter, I wish you would talk to me and that we could talk to each other. I want this to work and everything to go along with it to work. I know it just seems that im all over the place that’s bc i am and that’s how my brain is right now, I really don’t think its health but what can I do?. I wish you cared for me like I do for you but I know it will never happen bc Im more of a emotional person then you and Im sure one day its going to kill us.
Like I said I know it just looks like Im all over the place but thats bc I am and I really didnt know where else to let it all out.
Well for who are all following and for those who care lol
I have been so busy lately with sick kids, being sick myself and working. Blake is growing up so fast its hard to believe that this year she will be 2! where does time go???????? Like it didnt seem that long ago that I was stressing over her being 6 months old and then being a year. Along with wondering time goes, I will be 23 next month and for whatever reason I think Im turning 22. I dont know if anyone does read these or even really truly follows me but I like to think to someone does. I have found a new love and its makeup, I have always loved makeup but learning the stuff I have lately has just opened my eyes to everything that I have been doing wrong lol.
Anyways I shall say my goodbyes.
My chic baby
Since I haven’t really posted any personal photos here are a few.