Well for all that are possibly reading anything I post here is yet another little blog post. We are well into august and as we get closer and closer to the end of the month it also means we get closer to Blake’s 2nd birthday and all I can think is where did time go?. I know I pro posted something like this when she turned one but I think with every passing year I will have a hard time dealing with it b/c she inst that little baby anymore and I cant imagine what its like for Clayton b/c he goes out of town for work and what not. Also it doesnt just mean another age for Blake but it also means in some ways another year for Clayton and I, yes we started dating in Dec but I dunno we have grown so much together since Blake was born. I know if anyone reads this they will think its just another mom posting about her kid and family, but its something more to each mom, it might mean more to each of us but it does mean something, everything changes when you have a kid, some for the best and some for the worst. I know Im just going on and on and that no one will ever really read this but its an outlet but thanks for listening.\

Sara

xoxo

I feel like I’m slowly losing myself in everything, for the past week or so i have not felt myself in any way, all we have been doing is fighting and all i have been doing is fighting with myself it seems. Blake is going through a phase where nothing i do for her is making her happy and i feel its the same thing for you. I don’t talk to anyone anymore bc whats the point for people to get sick of me and never want to talk to me after? I even have stopped talking to my mom about some things bc what is the point? half the time i just feel like im being a bug to everyone. I guess lately i just don’t seem to make anyone happy bc of whatever i say or whatever i do. Some days i miss being a kid myself and not having all these worries bc they didn’t matter, I wish you would talk to me and that we could talk to each other. I want this to work and everything to go along with it to work. I know it just seems that im all over the place that’s bc i am and that’s how my brain is right now, I really don’t think its health but what can I do?. I wish you cared for me like I do for you but I know it will never happen bc Im more of a emotional person then you and Im sure one day its going to kill us.

Like I said I know it just looks like Im all over the place but thats bc I am and I really didnt know where else to let it all out.

anyway…….

Well for who are all following and for those who care lol
I have been so busy lately with sick kids, being sick myself and working. Blake is growing up so fast its hard to believe that this year she will be 2! where does time go???????? Like it didnt seem that long ago that I was stressing over her being 6 months old and then being a year. Along with wondering time goes, I will be 23 next month and for whatever reason I think Im turning 22. I dont know if anyone does read these or even really truly follows me but I like to think to someone does. I have found a new love and its makeup, I have always loved makeup but learning the stuff I have lately has just opened my eyes to everything that I have been doing wrong lol.

Anyways I shall say my goodbyes.

Sara

xoxo